From the Mrs......

Yes. I got married.....several weeks ago and have now gotten around to posting about it. Life has been busy lately. That and I just haven't had the desire to blog. I've considered deleting this blog...yet again...but then I always end up creating a new one. I just can't make up my mind on this thing.

So, the wedding was great! Except for the weather. It rained....in the Mohave desert!
WTF?? I was expecting it to be scorching hot and instead I was shivering and trying to stay dry under an overhang.

The Pastor was a little high strung and was a combination of the old fat Elvis and Chris Farley doing his impersonation of SNL character the Man who lives in a van down by the river . That was amusing .

Other than working and visiting family we are enjoying the newlywed life!

You know you've got something on your mind when...

you shave the same leg twice and don't even touch the other leg.

Things not meant to be seen

Andy left this a.m. for China. Not a long trip. Only about 10 days which isn't too bad. I hope to keep myself occupied as much as possible so as not to start thinking of things that only bring me down a bad road.

Tomorrow is garbage day, so I needed to take out the trash. We have strict limits on how big your trash barrel can be, so I needed to reorganize some trash from one barrel to another. Stuff in this barrel were items that got damaged when we had a flood in our basement. Mostly it was Andy's things. Lots of papers and books. I saw one of those day planner books and it looked like it wasn't in too bad a shape. I opened it to see if anything was inside. Mostly empty pages and a few notes. There was also a note written to Andy back in 1999 when he was engaged to his ex wife. It was a note written when they were in love. Nothing to in depth, but enough to made me sad. He was away and she had been watching the TLC channel. You know the channel that airs "A Wedding Story" and "A Baby Story"? She mentioned that she was watching those shows and then said that she couldn't wait to be his wife and the mother of his children, followed by an "I love you". That statement describes to a "T" the stage of the relationship we are in right now. I know that was written almost 10 years ago. I know that their relationship soured soon after that, but to see it written down like that from someone else just hurt. He didn't do anything wrong. He wasn't saving it for sentimental value. It was just something stuck in a book. I have no doubt about his love for me, but it just wasn't what I had expected to see. It just sucks. I wish I never opened that book because now I see it in my head.

I'll get over it. Not something that I will dwell over for long. How can I when he left me a note this a.m. telling me how much he loves me and that he can't wait to be my husband? How ironic that his note pretty much mimics hers.

"You have Metabolic Syndrome and we should follow you closely"

What is it? Not sure, but I got it because I'm overweight.

My "good" cholesterol is down and my Triglycerides are 3X's what they should be. How do I fix it? Eat a low fat diet and exercise regularly. Two of the things I despise most. I know this could very well lead to heart disease. Yet, I'm willing to go out and gorge myself on greasy cheeseburgers and onion rings because I love them. I LOVE MY CHEESEBURGERS!! God, I am salivating at the thought of eating one right now!

Do I love myself enough to give up those things in order to stick around for the people I love the most? Don't I want to be around for Andy? Don't I want to grow old with him? What is wrong with me and my mental status that I would continue to eat stuff that is putting my life at risk? Will I have a change of heart when I have a child? I don't know. I would hope so, but I'm not convinced. I should be having a change of heart now! I sit here and cry because this upset me, yet, I would have zero hesitation to go and order myself take out.

I love food. Food is like a drug to me. It gives me great pleasure to eat. We went out to dinner last night for the first time in a while (and yes, I got a big juicy Angus cheeseburger with onion straws on it!) and I enjoyed that meal so much. It's been 24 hours and I'm still thinking about that meal because it was so damn good! So what is it going to take for me to wake up and realize I need to get healthy? Certainly the letter from my doctor telling me that I have Metabolic Syndrome isn't enough, because I know me. The first chance I get to eat a good meaty cheeseburger, I will order it. And I will love ever morsel.

....OH, and I have high Calcium. That's a whole other story and it is called hyperparathyroidism . Just kill me now.....but first give me a cheeseburger.

MY DRESS HAS ARRIVED!!!!

 

It’s 4:49 pm. I have 11 minutes left of work. I will be racing home to retrieve my package. I will then bypass the kitties, grab a good CD and race upstairs to try on my WEDDING DRESS!!!!!!! AHHHHHH!!!!!!

 

Think I’m excited??

73 days and counting.....

73 more days and I’m off the market! Well, who are we kidding, I’ve been off the market for a while now and I’m pretty sure if I was on the market, I’d be in the bruised produce section. You know that section where the second day produce that hasn’t sold is discounted for people that are looking for a bargain? That be me.

I believe I found my dress . It’s through the David’s Bridal website. I LUFF it! I hope it looks good on me though. I hate ordering online when you haven’t tried anything on. They only sell it online, so I can’t go to a store to check it out. I was hoping to shed some poundage before I make the purchase, but I can’t seem to get my ass going on that. Especially considering that I bought a bag of Snyders Chocolate Covered Peanut Butter Pretzels sandwiches. Wow are those good. I had to put them elsewhere in the office or I would have eaten the whole bag. That will not help my crusade in losing weight. According to their size chart, it’s already 2 sizes bigger than I normally take. I swear the sizing in bridal gowns just shoot down your ego in a big way.

So, now we need to find wedding bands. I’m pretty sure I’m going to have to get the matching band that comes with my engagement ring as nothing else seems to look good. How unfortunate that I have to get a band with diamonds in it. :)

Well, I suppose I should do some work. I don’t want to, but I guess since they pay me I should. Ugh….

I hate shopping for a wedding dress

 

 

So the date is set for May 23^rd at 6:30pm (sunset) at the Valley of Fire in Nevada. Now I need to find a dress. I want a plain simple dress. Nothing poofy. Nothing with lots of beads or glittery thingamabobs. As far as a train, I just want something that brushes the ground. It’s called a brush train. I found one on ebay that I adored. It was only $59.99.  Unfortunately I’m a fat fucking cow so it won’t fit.

 

I went to David’s Bridal and saw zero that I liked. Didn’t try anything on. How hard is it to find something that is very basic?? I’ve had better luck at Target.com!! This is going to be the death of me. I’m ready to just get married in jeans and a T-shirt!!